To know people I care of are in pain is not good to me... It gets me kinda down, and it's worse when I know I can't do anything about it. I haven't been well phisically this days, I can thank the "Ring of Fire" for that, but other things are troubling me... these thoughts I can't get rid of... I wish I could just open my chest and pull them out, but they wont come out.... I wonder if it'll stay the same for long...

Could it be, that what I feel for him is actualy love... or just concern. Is it just a coincidence I smile when I think of him or whenever his name's mentioned. I dunno if it's me, but I think I blush everytime I hear it, and I seem to hear/read it everywhere now... I wonder what God's purpose is with these feelings of mine....